A few weeks ago, we celebrated Easter. But in the Christian church the season of Easter continues for fifty days, until the church celebrates Pentecost. So we are still in the season of Easter. A time of celebration of life. A time of joy! A time to come together with friends and family. But in a previous post, I mentioned that I have been thinking a lot recently about darkness, the darkness of doubt and depression. Like all holidays, for those who struggle with depression or doubt, Easter can be a time of struggle as well as joy. Like a cloud, depression sheds its dark shadow on even this most holy of days. As I reflect upon the season of Easter, I grasp onto the hope if offers. But, if I am honest, for me even Easter is a time of questioning and doubt. “In raising Jesus from the death, God won the victory over death.” That’s the message. But do I really believe it? Can I really believe it? As I travel through life, time seems to move quickly toward my own death? More importantly, death is alive and well in the world.A recent bombing in Brussels, making front page news around the world, left more than 30 people dead and over 100 injured. This is indeed horrible. But consider the even more horrendous things that happen in our world every day. The New York Times reports that in four and a half years of civil war in Syria, more than 200,000 people have been killed. If I do the math, I discover that this conflict, which is far from over, has taken the lives of 120 people every day! Most of these people, I am willing to guess, were innocent people who simply wanted to live in peace. And now they’re dead. Closer to home, there were over 500 homicides in Chicago in 2015. That is more each month than were killed in the Brussels attack.
Even the Earth as a whole seems headed toward death. Overwhelming evidence points to the fact that the climate of the earth is changing radically, and that much of the change is caused by human actions. But as most other American’s, I continue to live my life as if I can go on living the way I do. And in fact, in the short time that I have left to live, climate change may not impact my own life much at all. But in other parts of the world, poorer parts of the world, people are already suffering and dying from the impact changing weather patterns. Individual animals and whole species are dying. Even human communities are dying as they anticipate rising sea levels that will destroy their homes. And in the future, changes promise to bring suffering, and even death, closer to home.
So what can I make of the Easter message? “Jesus is risen!” “He is reason, indeed!” Indeed? Really? If Jesus won the victory over death, why is there so much of it troubling our world? As I sit in the pew, or reflect in front of my computer, the skeptic in me raises questions. Did Jesus really rise? Does God really care about this world? Has death, in fact, lost its sting? Yes, Easter can be a day of darkness as well as light.
Barbara Brown Taylor, in her wonderful book, Learning to Walk in the Dark, reflects upon her experience in a cave with two friends. These experienced cavers acted as her guides, but allowed her to experience the total darkness one encounters deep in a cave. Afterwards, as she reflected on her experience, Taylor reminds us that historians tell us that the stable in which Jesus was born was probably a cave. And it was in a cave that God raised Jesus from the dead. Taylor writres, “As many years as I have been listening to Easter sermons, I have never heard anyone talk about that part. Resurrection is always announced with Easter lilies, the sound of trumpets, bright streaming light. But it did not happen that way. If it happened in a cave, it happened in complete silence, in absolute darkness, with the smell of damp stone and dug earth in the air. Sitting deep in the heart of Organ Cave, I let this sink in: new life starts in the dark. Whether it is a seed in the ground, a baby in the womb, or Jesus in the tomb, it starts in the dark.”
We live in dark times. It is not difficult for some of us to feel discouraged and depressed, to doubt whether God cares for us, whether God cares for the world at all. Life seems very dark indeed. But perhaps there is an Easter message for those in darkness as well. With Barbara Brown Taylor, let us let it sink in: perhaps this, this darkness, is where new life, where hope begins. Perhaps God is at work, even in the darkness. Maybe there are wonders that only those who have grown accustomed to the darkness can see. May God enable all of us to trust that love is at work, in our minds, in our hearts, in our families, in our world, even when it feels dark and cold.
Hallelujah! Jesus is risen!